tanong na walang kasagutan

Bakit nga ba?
ikaw ang laging laman ng isip ko
lagi kitang anaalala
ikaw lagi ang hinahanap ko
concern ako sa'yo
Bakit nga ba?
ngalan mo sa tuwina aking nasasambit
maamo mong mukha nais kong masilayan
sobra ang pagpapahalaga ko sa'yo
handa akong masaktan para sa'yo
Bakit nga ba?
walang oras na 'di kita iniisip
waring balisa na minsay 'di ka mawaglit sa aking panaginip
mga boses ang aking inaasam-asam
ala-ala kita hanggang sa pag-idlip

marahil masasabi mong isa lang to sa aking pambobola
siguro natatawa ka na,.,.,
Ikaw nga kaya ay aking iniibig??

HmMm,.,.,., Bakit nga ba??

a PainFul Goodbye means a HaPPy eNdinG

Mahal na mahal kita.! Sa'yo ko lang naramdaman ang ganito. At hindi ko maintindihan ang sarile ko. Dapat ko bang maramdaman ang ganito.? Minamahal kita ng hindi ko alam ang dahilan. Ang alam lang ng puso ko ay mahal na mahal kita.!

Ginusto ko uling mapalapit sa'yo. Gusto ko sanang laging marinig ang boses mo.! Gusto kosanang kasama ka sa pagbuo ng mga pangarap ko. Pero hindi lahat ng gustuhin natin ay ibibigay sa atin ng DIYOS. May mga katotohanang dapat kong tanggapin sa sarili ko,., Yun ang katotohanang hindi ka talaga para sa akin.!

Minsan, tinatanong ko rin ang sarili ko, Bakit nga ba kailangang maramdaman ko ito sa'yo.?, Bakit patuloy pa rin ang puso ko na maramdaman ito.? Tanga ba ako.??
Pero hindi ko pinagsisisihan ang pagdating mo sa buhay ko.!, dahil malaking bahagi ka ng pagkatao ko.! Gusto kong takasan ang nararamdaman kong ito, para hindi ako matuksong magmakaawa sa'yo na mahalin mo ulit ako.! Dahil sa tingin ko,., wala na akong halaga sa'yo.!!!
Pero gusto ko sanang kalimutan mu din ang sulat kong ito sa'yo,., dahil hindi ko ito sinulat para malaman mo.! Sinulat ko ito dahil nahihirapan lang ako na itago ito sa sarili ko.! Gusto ko lang ito ilabas.!!! Isipin mo na lang na isa lang itong panaginip na sumagi sa isipan mo habang ika'y gising.!!! Gusto na kitang maging masaya kaya ayaw ko nang isipin mo pa ito.!!!
Wag mo na rin sana akong tanungin tungkol sa bagay na ito dahil isa lang ang isasagot ko:

"Ginusto kong maging masaya dahil madaling ngumiti.!!! kaysa Umiyak at ipaliwanag kung bakit ako malungkot.,.,.,!!!!!!!!!!!!"

if I could write songs in flowing water

if i could write songs in flowing river
i will didicate it to her
to the one i love the most
to the one i want to hold real close

i'll write it with my sweetest melodies
that can uplift the eternal soul
i'll include all our memories
that shows our happiness in picture full

i hope she appreciate it
because i made it with all of my heart
i wish she'll never break it or even torn it apart

but i need to face the crucial truth
that the water can never save my songs
like my love that can no longer hold her
because she left me in darkness of myself

but there's one thing i could promise to her
that, like the flowing river,,,,
my love will flow forever!!!!!

to: someone I can never hold again

I really love you so much!!! I could never known the reason why, but I know in myself that I really want to love you, because I am happy to love you!! Sorry for being too insensitive sometimes just to show my feelings for you, I just can't stand myself to love you!! I know to myself that I can never find another you in my life and I also know that I will never be that happy again to someone else!!! My life now is full of regret because of the times that I let you left me all alone . Do you know, that I wish to GOD that your heart will come back again to me? I am really hoping that you could love me again just like before because I really love you so much!!! I promise to myself that I will never let this feeling to be gone because I know that it can make my dreams fall out and I will loose myself again!!! But I know that you are in so much happiness not having me around and I also know that I should accept it even if it will bring me so much pain!!! I just wish, that you will find real happiness now, before you decide to forget me at all!! I just wanted to say thank you for all those memories that you let me shared with you!!! I just want you to remember, that I will always be here to love you even if the one you love now desserted you!!! I Love You so Much!!!